Missing

All around me i see
Ugly, hungry faces,
Course landscapes
Jarring views

I can't find my rose-tinted glasses
Which made everything look beautiful.

I hear, all the time,
Sad, melancholic voices
Mingled with cacophonous noises.

Where is that musical flute,
Which played happy tunes in my ear?

I can't find the meaning,
Of my life and my work.
I do not understand,
The twisted words spoken around me.
I cannot define myself anymore.
I lost my dictionary,
That beautiful dictionary with gold trimmings.

I find a frown,
Creeping between my eyebrows.
And a few angry words,
Settling on my tongue.
I wonder who invited them.
And my soft smile is missing.

I really must find them
I miss my happiness,
I miss my crazy optimism,
I miss myself,
I hope I find Anindita soon.