Lessons

I am not too sure why i am writing today. I have no real issue or subject. I have this totally tranquil mind now. N yes, i am in thoughtful mood. It helps to think when i am calm.

My life has taken very unexpected twists lately. This phase started from 2008. I changed jobs and came to live in Delhi. then i decided to dump that work and become a lecturer. In my entire life, i had never thought i will ever teach. And lo! I am doing just that and guess what, I am enjoying it.

I met a few people in the course of time and left a lot of people behind. And all along, i learnt some very vital lessons. ( i guess I'm in the mood for sermons today)

The most important thing I learnt was that I should value what I have with me and not keep running behind an elusive mirage. There is no harm in running behind a dream. But at times, I find that we are running in circles and there is no point in running like that. With this lesson i think i must add that I should value time. Opportunity doesn't knock twice. The reason I am still working whereas so many ex-colleagues are out of job is because i went ahead and grabbed the job of a lecturer. If I had waited any longer, I would have been a total zero by now. Not just opportunities, even people dont stick, if you let them slip. We dont meet too many fantastic people in our lives and it's best we enjoy the time we are getting to spend with them rather than be rude and leave them behind.

I always believe that all of us, every one of us, is actually a little baby at heart. We all want lots of affection and gentleness. In our mad rush, we may forget to treat others with the kindness they deserve. We all make mistakes and we all want to be forgiven. It makes sense to forgive others.

The greatest virtue a person can have is courage. Courage to face difficulties and courage to smile when things are not going great. Last December, I was at my lowest. And it was then that I realised that I have huge reservoirs of courage to build something from the rubble around me. I have not built anything yet but I mean to.

I consider myself a feminist. I dont see any reason I should think myself any way inferior to a guy. But, at the same time, I know that girls give too much in a relationship. Just why, I dont know. I have. I have seen countless other women do it as well. It is given a nice name called adjustment. I have seen very strong and opinionated girls take a lot of nonsense from guys. I know where it starts. It starts with a girl and a guy cooing and seeing wonderful rainbows around them. They are different, they know but they love their difference. The guy would adore the girls idiosyncracies. And the girl is delighted that "oh! see! he loves me so muuuuchhh. he says in such a cute way that i shouldn't wear these clothes...i shouldn't mix with my child hood friends ( who are incidentally guys).... i shouldn't take part in the drama cos all guys from the college will hoot and will tarnish my reputation....( blah blah). My boyfriend is sooo concerned abt my reputation and my image. he loves me soooo much". But eventually, in the end, it's just a sublime case of bullying. And just why do girls have to mother their boyfriends, i dont understand. And girls somehow, necessarily have to act silly and helpless, atleast in the initial phase.

I am not too eager to learn lessons from life. That somehow means that I have to go through a lot of hardship. Very honestly, I'd rather live a totally carefree life, without learning any lessons than undergo struggle and learn lessons...and give sermons!