Thinking Too Much

Time and again, I have been accused of thinking too much. This has been said by a number of people. Strangely, most of the people who said this were guys.

I am trying to find out just what made these people say this? IS it true, that I think too much? Or is it that people are uncomfortable with listening to others thoughts? Or does it really have to do with the XY chromosome, which prohibits people to be in tune with others thoughts. In all honesty, I have expressed my thoughts more often to girls and have heard so many girls express their thoughts. In none of those situtations did I ever feel that we must not think so much.

lemme start with what do i think abt most. The primary subject of my thoughts is very obviously me. But this identity does not quite dominate my thoughts when I am conversing with a person. Most of the times, I am acutely tuned to nuances. Of difference in voice, a sudden gesture, a flick here or there ( no wonder i have trouble with internet chats :) ). Even while talking, I notice a lot. And I gather my information in that way ( many times they prove to be correct, sometimes...not ).

My next line of thoughts are generally concerned with Other Person ( first name: Other, Surname: Person). What Other means, what does he/she want and my most important thought..Is everything FAIR! Grrrr.... i wish I could just get away with these thoughts of fairness and equality. It's tough to explain, this strange trait.

I think it stems from my childhood, when I couldn't decide which shoe should I wear first, cos if I wore my right show first, I am being unfair to the left foot and vice versa. And till today, I can never allow any situation to go un-analysed, without a postmortem of which party said/did what, who benefitted and who lost.... and why? And how could the result have been different? All this processing takes time ofcourse. It takes me a lot of time to come to a balanced judgement ( and how unfair... no one asks for this carefully weighed judgement!!. Once I have come to my very delicate balanced analysis, I am at peace, ready to analyse the next situation in queue.

The good thing about this is that, I cannot allow myself to remain angry with one person or situation. I always find a good reason why Other Person said or did this or that. And I am absolutely delighted when I come across with new angles and data to look at the picture more broadly.

Whew! I agree with the people who say that I think too much. My defence, So do a lot of others.

Case closed!!!