Unforgotten Unquestioned Unanswered

I wish I could tell you the truth, the whole truth. Truth which is not obscured or half-hidden by inhibitions. When I can safely tell u what you mean to me, without the fear of shy coming.

I did not like you the first time we met. I thought you were a boring guy and I had liked your friend instead. It was a good thing that since I didnt have a crush on you, I could forge such a deep friendship with you. But I did not know that the guy I am confiding in is such a gem of a person.

I dont remember when was the first time you touched me, under what circumstance. But I do remember that I once held your shoulder when you were immensely upset, holding you almost man to man. At that time, i did not know that I will soon be trading my best friend and in return get such a super boyfriend.

And then, that fateful afternoon, when your finger lightly brushed on my lips. Your eyes were screaming. Yelling out to me, to hold you, to pull you back to shore. Did you know that every cell of my being wanted to be touched by you and loved in a way only you can?

You had asked me long back that if we were never to meet again, will I live a normal life? I had smiled and replied that yes I will live. I will live but I won't be alive. At that time, did you know the nuance. It was so long ago....but did you know?